An Open Letter to Whoever

To whoever cares –

I feel like I have so many things to say, but I have no idea how to say them. I actually have a small amount of anxiety right now as I begin to write this out. I am getting older and with that comes responsibility – responsibility to find myself and my own opinions, and the responsibility to be able to properly state those thoughts in the most respectable way possible. Over the past few weeks, a few historical things have happened in our nation. Racial hate crimes take place what seems like all the time, and we have made same-sex marriage legal. I don’t know if it’s because I am just now starting to pay attention, but our country seems to be changing into a different one than I grew up in. I get anxious talking about things that are controversial. Right now my face is bright red and I’m sweating. There is always the fear that I will say something “wrong” or “offensive”. As a white, heterosexual, American female there are things that I obviously will never be able to understand. I will never be able to know how it feels to be looked at and automatically be judged. I will never know how it feels to be categorized only by the color of my skin. And I don’t pretend to. But as a person I do feel like I have an opinion on these things. And as a Christian, I have an even bigger one.

ON RACE:

It is hard for me to wrap my head around the idea of people being MURDERED, out of hate, in their very own church, a place where you should feel very safe. It is almost impossible for me to comprehend the idea of my Christian brothers and sisters being killed while in PRAYER. What is even more incomprehensible is that a tragedy like this happens and because we want something to fight about, it is turned into a campaign for policy change – as if we forgot that people died and families are now forever broken. It is heartbreaking, it is a tragedy, and no doubt it is the work of Satan. This Sunday, Benjamin Watson spoke at our church and said a lot of things that struck me (which you might recognize from his post here). He says that we do not have a skin problem, we have a sin problem, and, luckily for us, God gave us the answer to sin when Jesus Christ died on the cross. Racism is a symptom of our sin. As Christians, we have the choice to show the grace of God in our actions and in our responses. It is our job, even just as PEOPLE, to live and radiate love to everybody, no matter what they look like. It is our job to talk about things, no matter how awkward and uncomfortable they are. We must engage in the things taking place around us, not run scared at controversy. I believe that this really all starts with conversation, getting answers from the other side – which would probably be a lot easier if everybody didn’t get so dang offended all the time. We need to learn how to distinguish a genuine, honest question from an accusation. There are so many things I want to ask and say but am scared the other person will just get mad at me. We need to respect opposing opinions and thoughts. After all, isn’t that what this great nation is built on? I believe that change starts there.

ON GAY MARRIAGE:

The Christian faith is fundamentally built on LOVE. Jesus Christ tells us to love everybody – gay, straight, black, white, whether they are a Christian or not, whether they are sinners or not (newsflash – we all are). The sooner we realize that, the better off we will be. We don’t have the right to condemn others for what they choose to do with their lives. We don’t rally and protest the fact that all people are legally allowed to cheat on their spouses, which – guess what – is “against the bible”. This is not a Christian world, and we do not have the right to try and make it one. In fact, it was never even intended to be one. As the world evolves, Christianity and its followers must evolve with it. Not all Christians are the way that people want to make them out to be. We don’t all want to rule the world and dominate this country, despite what you may think. Most of us just want to be an example of the Lord. We want to love others as Jesus Christ loved us. As a younger Christian, it is easy for me to be accepting of things like gay marriage. We live in a different world than our parents and grandparents did, and I understand that they don't feel comfortable with the same things that I do, but my hope is that one day they will. We must be patient as we wait for them to catch up to us. Change takes time. I want people to look at Christians and see a living example of God's grace. We are all made in the eyes of the Lord, and we are all equally as loved and cherished by Him. And in order to properly pay Jesus back for what he did for us (if there is ever a way to do so), we must be an example of his boundless love here on Earth. We are one step closer to loving people just the way they are. Open your hearts to everybody around you, regardless of who they choose to be/love.

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Life is not all about policies and government and this and that. It is about the people around you. Not everything can be made into a perfect little article to stick in the giant book of laws...whatever that even means. Love people first and care about all the other stuff later.

I am not an expert on anything, and I don’t claim to be. These are my thoughts as a Christian. I don’t mean to offend anybody, and I definitely don’t mean to make it seem like I know a lot about what I’m talking about. Often times I just feel the need to defend my faith. It is my job as a Jesus follower to spread the word of God and how I believe he would want us to act. The answer to that is always and will always be LOVE. Seriously, if you’re a Christian always always always ask yourself, “what would Jesus do?”

Talk about things that make you uncomfortable. Be a better person, a better Christian, and a better American. The world would be a much different place if we all saw each other the way God saw us.

Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other just as in Christ God forgave you. Follow God's example, therefore, as dearly loved children, and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us. || Ephesians 4:32 - 5:2

Knit for Kids

Hello everybody! Happy almost Friday. A few months ago, I felt the need to just do something for the world. That sounds stupid, but, it's true! I thought about what I personally could do to help this world just a liiiiitttle bit, and I decided I was going to knit some baby things and donate them. I did some research, and I came across Knit for Kids. Knit for Kids is a Christian organization that receives your donated items and sends them to places all across the world, including the United States. I have a personal goal of sending in (hopefully) 100 little hats, with the help of my friends and family who knit around me as well. 

I'm sharing this because I want other people to feel inspired and maybe get involved. You can read more about the Knit for Kids story here. They are currently only accepting hats and basic sweaters. You can browse through the website (here) and see the rules/regulation and decide if it is something you are interested in. There are simple patterns available on the website as well!

If you want, I created a pattern that is fairly easy for a baby hat that you guys can use! It's the pattern I used for the hats in the photo above. It's super simple. 

Materials:

Chunky yarn

10 1/2 needles (straight or circular)

Darning needle

Pattern:

Cast on 40 stitches

Row 1: Knit

Row 2: Purl

- continue rows 1 & 2 for about 5 inches ending with a row 2 row -

Decreasing

Row 1: K2 *k2tog rest of row* - 21 sts. 

Row 2: Purl whole row

Row 3: K1 *k2tog rest of row* - 11 sts.

Row 4: Purl whole row

Row 5: K1 *k2tog rest of row* - 6 sts.

Finishing

Cut a long tail, attach darning needle, and weave tail through remaining stitches. Pull the needle out from the stitches and close the top of the hat. Work the seam of the hat using the mattress stitch. Weave ends in.

For a pdf printable version of this pattern, click here. 

There you go! If there is anything I can do to make the pattern simpler or if there is anything confusing about it, please let me know! It's super easy. Probably easier than it seems. Try it out & let me know :)

20 things I've learned by 20

Hi! Tomorrow I turn 20. That seems so old to me. How am I already out of my teens??? Don't y'all remember being little kids and looking up at the "adults" who were really just teenagers but seemed like they could 25?? Anyways, I think over my 20 years I have learned a lot about life, so if you want a little insight from lil old me, here you go...

1. Birthdays are just regular days. I'm sure you all already know this, but once you reach like 18, it almost seems like birthdays just don't matter as much. 

2. The sky at night is the most amazing thing in the world. We don't appreciate the stars and the moon enough. Go outside at 11 o'clock at night and just look up. There's a pretty amazing world right in front of you!!!

3. Jesus will always have an answer. Even if it's not the one you want, He always has an answer. You would be surprised how good just praying makes you feel.

4. Your parents don't suck, they are actually pretty cool. Nothing beats staying at home with your family and playing board games all night, or is that just me?...........

5. Pizza is good at any time, any day!!!!!!!! Period.

6. Get you work done first. Do your school work or whatever it is done before you go out. That way you have nothing to worry about!!

7. Crying makes you feel better. I've learned that if you need to cry, just cry. It's cathartic. 

8. Everybody has something important to share. No matter who, every single person you meet has something you can learn from them. All you have to do is take the time to talk and listen to them!

9. Some people are just mean and there is nothing you can do about that. 

10. Getting angry at things you can't change is pointless. This is when the power of prayer is so important. You can't waste your life being angry about things and people that you can't change. All you can do is pray about it. You can help and pray and give advice, but being angry does absolutely nothing. 

11. Do the photobooth. If there's a photobooth, spend the five dollars for it. Nothing makes me happier than a photobooth!!!!

12. If you want to spend money on a nice trip or a nice pair of shoes, do it. Life really is way to short to care. Just do it.

13. Don't compare yourself to others. You can only compare yourself to who you are. Remember where you have came from and what you have accomplished. You are you and you will always be just you. There is no point in being unhappy about that. You are made perfectly and uniquely by God and that is something to be proud of.

14. Complaining is pointless. If you're complaining, you're doing something wrong. Either change your situation or deal with it.

15. Apologize first. Life is too short to wait for the other person to say they're sorry. Just do it first, and you'll be much happier.

16. Read books. There is nothing better than really getting lost in a good book. Don't spend all your time on the computer or watching TV. Enhance your mind and change your perspective some! Your brain matters....nourish it!!!

17. Stay humble. Don't look down on others... Be grateful for what you have instead of wasting your time being grateful that others don't have it. Focus on bettering yourself.

18. Relationships are hard. They're not always fun and they definitely are not always easy, but when you find that perfect way to be happy with someone, they really are worth it!! 

19. You can never confront somebody the right way. Sometimes, you just have to confront somebody. Don't waste your time trying to perfect what you are going to say. It'll never be easy. It'll never come out right. Just do it.

20. A relationship with Jesus takes just as much work as any other relationship. God is always there for you. He is willing to move you from point A to point B, but you have to be willing to move with him. You have to be willing to give up time in your day to spend time with Him. A relationship with Jesus is just as important as a relationship with your boyfriend. That is something very important to remember. 

Y'all have a good day!!!!

Welcome to My Mind

Finals are here, so naturally, I'm writing a blog post. But I'm multi tasking! I am simultaneously stressed out while writing a blog post. I'm so talented. I'm sitting here studying and worrying and maybe crying just a little bit, but I'm also thinking a lot about why we college students put ourselves through all of this... and I would like to think it's because eventually we all want to do great things with our lives. We all want to change the world, and with that comes a bunch of school, a bunch of tests, a bunch of stress, and a bunch of worrying. But Jesus tells us not to worry. He tells us that he is there for us.

I truly believe that Jesus has a plan for who we are supposed to be. Such a weight is lifted off my shoulders knowing that. Jesus knows exactly what we are going to do. He knows the mistakes we are going to make before we even make them, yet he died or us and loves everything about us. He forgave all of our sins before we even committed them. That is something that as Christians we should be able to take heart in. In return we must have faith in our actions and in ourselves. God will know what you are going to do before you even think about doing it. That's so scary but so important.

Doesn't that almost making worrying about your big exams seem a little bit minuscule? In return for what Jesus did for us, the least we can do is take what we are given and be thankful for it - instead of continuously wishing they would go away... We are where we are for a reason. Just go with the flow! Everything will work out.

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.  

Psalm 32:8

PS: if this doesn't make sense, sorry, it's actually a page right out of my journal....welcome to my mind!

Judah Smith's "Jesus Is"

Hi!!! Long time, no post! It's April and so far I am on my 5th book of 2015... At this rate, I will never finish my book list, but that's ok! I'm just trying to make sure I make time for myself to enjoy the little things. I recently finished Judah Smith's Jesus Is, and I am so excited to write a post about it! I 100% recommend this book to all Christians, no matter where you are on your journey with Christ. It is eye-opening, hilarious, and full of reminders of God's grace. Judah Smith is so talented at spreading God's word. If y'all have never heard of him, he is the lead pastor of City Church in Seattle. Watch some videos of his to get an idea of who he is. He is amazing! If anybody reads it please please please e-mail me, I would love to talk about it :)

1. Jesus loves you, no matter who you are. Jesus came for the broken, the bad, the addicted, the bound, the deceived, the lost, and the hurting. Judah writes, "Jesus was obsessed with showing mercy to those who least deserved it. He was passionate about giving hope to hopeless people. He was committed to showing grace to the worst of sinners. And if I'm honest, that includes me."

2. Jesus is grace. We often think of grace as a "thing". It is something that we take advantage of because we know that Jesus is full of grace. But instead of thinking of grace as a thing, we should think of Jesus as grace. We would be much less likely to abuse grace if we thought of it as a person, let alone as Jesus.

3. Once you experience God's goodness, sin no longer is appealing. People who aren't Christians look at the concept of grace and think that this is an excuse for Christians to sin, however that is not at all what it is. When we experience God and all that he has to offer, we want to live a life that is good, not one of sin.

4. The gospel is good news. This is my favorite quote from the book. "That's the gospel. It's good news for everyone. It's not good news just for people who are already good, for those who are self-controlled and disciplined enough to have all their ducks in a row. It's good news for the people who can't even find their ducks. They haven't seen some of their ducks in years. Their lives are a mess. But they can come to Jesus and find instant acceptance. They belong long before they believe and long before they behavior."

5. Jesus wants you to be happy. Christians often have the reputation of making everybody feel as if they are being judged, and often, it's not just a reputation. Jesus didn't want you to judge all the people around you. He wanted you to be able to laugh at yourself. He didn't want you to sweat the small stuff. Judah says, "Something is wrong when we call ourselves Christians but we practically have an aneurysm just trying to crack a smile."

6. God loves you more than you love him. When you pray, don't come to Jesus telling him all the things you've done to be a good Christian because he already knows. Tell him that you know how much he loves you, that you know only he can do whatever you need. He is on your side not because of what you have done for him, but because that is just who he is. His love is unconditional.

7. Jesus allows you to live a different life. Because Jesus died for our sins, we can live our lives from a place of peace. We know that God controls our each and every move. Jesus is stronger than any force in the whole entire universe. He allows you to move forward in life without worrying about what is to come.

Can you see how great this book is?!!? Please, read it!
Tooooodles,

DIY Brown Sugar Scrub with Vanilla

You will need //
2 cups brown sugar
1/2 cup of olive oil (some people use coconut oil, which I probably would have liked better but because I was impatient I just used what I had!)
2 tablespoons vanilla extract
Mason jar or some sort of sealing container

Here's how //
Measure in a large mixing bowl the 2 cups of brown sugar. Slowly, while mixing, pour in the olive oil. Use your hands to mash it all together. Once all the brown sugar has been mixed with the oil (you may need a little more oil but not too much), mix in the vanilla. Once it all seems saturated (not too goopy), spoon it into whatever container you're using. You may need to drain a little oil out over the sink or bathtub if it seems to "water-y".

Using it //
I've used my scrub in the shower multiple times now. Scrub the mixture on in the shower then wait about 5 minutes under hot water. Your hands may feel a bit oily at first, but if you allow time in the shower for the scrub to rinse off, it won't be an issue! Your skin will be super super smooth hours after your shower, and it's super easy to make with things you have just laying around your house.

Let me know if y'all try it out!

Life Lessons From Amy Poehler's "Yes Please"

I finished my first book off of my 2015 reading list! A little late in the game, but whatevs. Amy Poehler's Yes Please consists of 327 glossy pages full of humor, dirty jokes, and just a liiiiiitttle bit of insight. Okay, I lied, a lot of insight. Here are 14 things I learned while reading Yes Please. 

1. Pick your currency. There are things inside of you that will get you far in life, you just have to decide what it is. "Decide what your currency is early. Let go of what you will never have. People who do this are happier and sexier." 

2. Always apologize. Don't not apologize because of your ego or because of shame or because you're embarrassed. "Shame makes people abandon their children and drink themselves to death. It also keeps us from true happiness. An apology is a glorious release."

3. Famous people knit too. Knitting is cool. Period.

4. The pudding isn't what is important. Amy talks about being nominated for awards. She discusses how you really think you don't want the pudding, then you get nominated and you begin to want it, then you don't win it, and you're upset over something you didn't even want in the first place. She talks about all the fun stuff she's done at award shows. I don't know, I guess you would have to read the chapter to understand this part. (READ IT!) "The lessons? Women are mighty. George Clooney loves bits. Doing something together is often more fun than doing it alone. And you don't always have to win to get the pudding." 

5. One night of good sleep can change your life. "Sleep can completely change your entire outlook on life. One good night's sleep can help you realize that you shouldn't break up with someone, or you are being too hard on your friend, or you actually will win the race or the game or get the job. Sleep helps you win at life." 

6. You have to work for what you want. "The reality is, most people become 'famous' or get great jobs' after a very, very long tenure shoveling shit and not because they handed their script to someone on the street...People don't want to hear about the fifteen years of waiting tables and doing small shows with your friends until one of them gets a little famous and they convince people to hire you."

7. Creativity is your life line. "Creativity is the stuff that lubricates our lives and helps us feel less alone in the world. It is a really warm Hispanic lady who has a beautiful laugh and loves to hug. If you are even a little bit nice to her she will make you feel great and maybe cook you delicious food." 

8. Time travel exists. People, places, and things can take you back to a time that you thought you could never go back to. "Time moves too slow or too fast. But I know a secret. You can control time. You can stop it or stretch it or loop it around. You can travel back and forth by living in the moment and paying attention. Time can be a bitch if you just let go of the 'next' and the 'before.'" 

9. Death sucks. Death teaches us a lot of things. "I realized that life is not fair or safe or even ours to own."

10. Take time to look at the moon. Isn't there something special knowing that somebody a million miles away is looking at the same moon that you are? "Every time I look at the moon, I feel less alone and less afraid. I tell my boys that moonlight is a magic blanket and the stars above us are campfires set by friendly aliens." 

11. Parties with famous people aren't that great. The end.

12. Helping out is helping out, it doesn't matter why. "I wondered if I was doing this for some kind of ego trip. Then I decided I didn't care. Not enough is made of the fact that being of service makes you feel good. I think nonprofits should guarantee that giving your time and money makes your skin better and your ass smaller. Why not? There are so many people in the world with so little. Who cares why you decide to help?"

13. People are very bad and very good. A little love goes a long way.

14. Our phones and the internet are trying to kill us. "So far, the only good things I have seen come out of this recent technological renaissance are video-chatting with your grandparents, online dating, and being able to attend traffic school on your computer." 

I really think I'm in love with her, for reals y'all. You can get Yes Please here on Amazon. READ IT!

Putting Yourself First

Everybody has that one really complicated friendship or relationship. You know the kind, right? We have somebody in our lives who can literally do no wrong (at least in our eyes). Somebody who, no matter what happens, will always get the gift of us constantly defending them. As time goes by, we have constant battles within our own brains where we wonder WHY are we even bothering with somebody who doesn't deserve a single thought from us in the first place.

At the point of life that I'm in now, I've decided that this is when the decisions I'm making are going to start to really matter. This is when I am basically deciding my future - what I'm going to do, who I'm going to be, and most importantly, who I really want to surround myself with. Who am I going to rely on to make my life worth living?

I've decided that I want to make a more conscious effort to really consider who I am surrounding myself with. If I've learned one thing my whole life, it's that people aren't always who you want to believe they are. Discovering who somebody truly is can be one of the most heartbreaking things in the world. Nothing is more difficult than deciding to cut yourself off from somebody who you want so badly to just be different.

There comes a point in your adolescence (if 20 years old is even considered adolescence) where you have to cut the negative people out. You have to consciously end the cycles that exist in your life. You have to move on from people who are holding you back. You can't expect to see a change in your life if you are always doing the same things.

It takes a really big person to be able to realize what make ultimately makes you better. Sometimes it's hard and sometimes it's really, really messy, but in the end, I can bet you it's worth it.

The Concept of Empathy

Everybody knows what empathy is, right? If not, let me quickly just define it for you... Empathy is the ability to share and understand the feelings of someone else. It's such a simple concept, it something we can all understand, yet for some reason, we, as humans, cannot seem to get it.

Everyday as we go through our life, we are mainly just thinking about ourselves. It's not bad, and I'm not calling anybody out, it's just human nature. That's just the way we were made. We live our lives thinking about how to get through our hardships and our problems. We can sit in a room full of people, listen to them talk, and still only be thinking about our problems. We can sit there for hours thinking about what is wrong with our lives, we can tell our best friends all about what's going on, and we expect them to just drop everything and be able to understand what we are going through. Yet, why can we not do the same for them? The reason is - it's simply just too hard for us to accept that somebody else's problems just might be greater than ours. 

Sure, humans are made to be sympathetic and empathetic, but humans are also made to be selfish and wild. We are made to look out for ourselves, and that's just the way it is. How do we fix this? How do make it so that empathy prevails? Before you can feel empathetic for somebody I believe (now, this is just my opinion) that you have to truly be able to listen to them and care about what they are saying. You have to be ready to 100% forget about whatever you are dealing with. It's not something that you can just do. That's the difference between empathy and sympathy. Sympathy is feeling for someone, and empathy is feeling with someone. 

I'm not a genius on the subject, and I definitely don't know the science behind empathy and sympathy at all... This post was just inspired by something one of my professors said in class, and I thought it was interesting. 

What do you guys think?

My 2015 Reading List

In 2015, I'll be turning 20. Isn't that such a weird time? Like I will no longer be a teenager, I will be entering my twenties... How is this even possible?!!? Turning 20 is such a pivotal time especially for a young woman, so I decided to hit Google and research books that women in their 20's must read (according to a bunch of internet enthusiasts). I glimpsed the summaries and picked some books from a bunch of lists, and here is what I came up with.

So there are like 20-something books on my reading list, and I'm sure I will stick some more on here or take some off, but for right now - this is what it's gonna be. And being completely honest, I don't even know if there is any way I could even finish 20 books in a year with school and whatever else I do, so this may roll over onto my 2016 reading list. This year, I am going to try to do more book reviews on the blog, so hopefully you'll be hearing more about these books as the year goes on. 

If you need some books to read and are in about the same age range as I am - look them up! Now most of these are probably more for women, but men, feel free to take a peek because I'm sure there are some for you too! The links lead to Amazon, where you can read a summary and buy them yourself (usually for cheaper)!

First Draft

• Yes Please [ my post: Life Lessons From Amy Poehler ]
• Paper Towns
• A Storm of Swords
• A Feast for Crows
• A Dance with Dragons
• Bad Behavior: Stories
• White Teeth
• Self-Help Stories
• The Maze Runner 
• To Kill a Mockingbird
• Slouching Towards Bethlehem
• Hard to Get: Twenty-Something Women and the Paradox of Sexual Freedom
• The Liar's Club (& then Cherry & then Lit)
• He's Just Not That Into You (yes, cliche, but necessary)
• The Emperor's Children
• The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao
• The Group
• Hard Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World
• Just Kids
• Wild
• Unbroken
• Up in the Old Hotel

Added

• The Commitment
• Jesus Is [ my post: 7 Things I Learned about Jesus from Judah Smith ]
• American Sniper
• The Best Yes

What's on your reading list? 

Hello 2015...

How is it already 2015? How is it that we are already entering another year filled with mystery, confusion, fun and excitement? Every single year, we all make resolutions to "do this" and "do that," but after about three weeks, we seem to have forgotten that we weren't supposed to eat chocolate or say the "s-word." We don't mean to forget, life just kind of gets in the way and all of a sudden, it's like we never even made those promises to ourselves. I guess promises are meant to be broken.

Instead of making resolutions and promises that I know I'm going to break, this year I decided it would be easier to live my life a certain way. I am deciding to take one word and try to apply it to my life as often as I can. 

My word of 2015 is pause                                                                                                                                 

pause: a temporary stop; a period of time in which something is stopped before it is started again - a reason to consider something.

We often are running around frantically and trying to finish all the things on our to do list. We are just continuously marking things off that little symbolic piece of paper, but why? Why do we earn our money just to save it? Why do we go on adventures just to forget about them years later? This year, I am making a promise to myself to just stop and pause.

I want my life to be remembered, even if it is just by me. I want to spend my money on something I will never forget. I want to take a million pictures of one stupid, beautiful sunset. I want to pause, and think about why I am doing what I am doing. I want to take the time to just slow down and think about all that I have. I want to be reminded of the things I value and hold close to me. 

Pause and see what your life is really all about. I hope as the year goes on, I can hold this word close to me. I hope I can truly come to see the beauty of everything in my life. 

Do you have a word of 2015? 

ps: how do you like the new look for the blog?

How to knit leg warmers/boot socks

Soooo, I know this is a pretty lame post to write after like, five months of not posting anything, but I actually designed my own pattern for the first time (though however simple it may be) and thought I would share! 

Leg warmers/boot socks are so in these days. They're so simple yet they can help an outfit tremendously, plus they are comfy. What's not to love about them? I've been adding to my collection of socks and have been wanting to knit some for awhile now, but I can't bring myself to learn all the complicated parts that come along with that. These are the next best things! So, here you go. 

The materials:

- size 9 needles (5.5 mm)

- any type of yarn, I just used some of my scrap worsted weight yarn

- darning needle 

- lace (optional) 

The pattern:

- cast on 25 stitches

- work in stockinette stitch (k1 row, p1 row) until piece measures about 8 1/4 inches

This was for the lower part of my leg, designed to fit where my short Uggs cut off. Just knit until the piece wraps around where you want your leg warmer to go (if that makes sense...)

- after purling your last row, cast off knit-wise 

- with the wrong side facing you, use the mattress stitch and your darning needle to sew the ends together. Make sure you cut a long tail to seam the ends together with 

- cut the ends, tie a knot, tuck in the loose ends, and turn your piece inside out so the seam is hidden on the inside of the leg warmer

If you want to sew ribbon onto the top of the leg warmer, do so before sewing the ends together!

Repeat for your second sock. 

There you have it, your own leg warmer! They're so simple and you can really do any pattern you want. A rib would look nice too. It's all up to you. Stock up on some for the upcoming winter months. You can literally make them in a few hours! 

Show me yours! 

Serious stuff....

I know I promised Disney pictures when I wrote next, but I just can't bring myself to go through all my pictures right now. I just started school again and have been extremely busy moving and getting situated!

Since school has started, I've been stressed out with juggling homework and leisure time and play time and everything that comes with being a college student, but today, that stress and worrying seems to be extremely irrelevant.

Over the past year or so, my suburban hometown (and I'm sure many others!) seems to be filled with the use of lots and lots of hard drugs. I'm not talking about weed, but I'm talking about pills and heroin. Being able to relate personally with addicts, it breaks my heart to see young girls and boys, not even 20 years old, throwing their lives away in order to get that "high" that they so badly desire. Sure, it may be fun now, or you may be impressing these people now, but is it ultimately worth what could happen to you in the end? Because of my relationships with addicts (something I won't really talk about on here right now), and people who have been directly affected by them and their choices, it's almost hard for me to have sympathy for these young addicts in my town who throw their lives away...killing themselves because they "just can't live with the opportunities that God has given them." Sure, not all of them intentionally kill themselves, but when they make that choice to stick that needle in their arms or to swallow that pill, they know the consequences and what could come along with it. It honestly breaks my heart to see people who could amount to so much become so little.

Either they got caught in the wrong crowd, they had to face some pretty horrible things, or it was just supposed to be something fun; all of these people make the choice to do these hard drugs that could cause so much harm to their family and to their friends. If you know an addict personally, you know how hard it can be to watch them practically throw their lives away. You have watched them turn into somebody their not because of a drug, and that is one of the most heartbreaking things in the world. 

I'm not really sure why I'm even writing this post...maybe to just get some thoughts out on the issue. I just want to bring awareness to the issue that communities all over face. I am 19 years old, and I have to use two hands to count the amount of people I know who have overdosed, and there is something seriously wrong with that. I want teenagers and young adults to open their eyes and see what these drugs can do to them. I want them to not be so selfish as to put their families through a lifetime of hurt and wondering what else they could have done, when in all honesty, there was nothing.

For me, it's hard to feel bad for these addicts. It's hard for me to understand why somebody chooses a life that they can so easily avoid. There are many personal issues I face when it comes to addicts, and many things I need to work on. If you know one, maybe you know how I feel. If you don't personally know any, it probably makes it a lot easier to believe that these people truly did just have a bad life....

Anywhooooooo, this is deep and personal and maybe a little weird! But appreciate the life you have, and the things you have been given because it could all change in a blink of an eye. 

Rest in peace to the victims of the drug-use phenomenon. 

I suck...

Okay, I know how badly I am sucking at blogging right now. I just moved into my apartment so I have been super busy! I have so many post ideas in my head, but just wanted my first one to be about Disney World, but I have yet to go through all my photos. Half dreading it because there are SO many! I promise I'll be back soon...

xoxoo,

Randell

I'm baaaaaaackkkk

I'm back! However, this post is not a "real" post. Just a hi! post. Anyways, give me a few days to go through my photos and get some developed and I'll share with y'all my entire trip from start to finish (okay...maybe not in a one post, but definitely an overview!). Hope you guys had a good week and you'll be hearing from me sometime this week. Pardon my little break...

xoxoxo,

Randell

And we're off.....

So my attempt to watch all the Disney movies I wanted before the trip failed so bad, but I did get to re-watch some of my favorites including The Jungle Book and Lilo & Stitch! But anyways...today is the day we leave for Disney and I am so excited! I won't post at all until next Saturday, but if you want to keep up with my trip and experience follow me on my personal Instagram @randellscism. There will be many many many many photos...

Until next time, musketeers!

Randell

P.S. - any last minute tips would be appreciated! E-mail me @ scismr@yahoo.com

DIY Embroidered Canvas

Awhile ago George and I went to an art festival in Virginia Highlands, and a photographer had taken a photo of graffiti on the wall that said "Be the person your dog thinks you are," and I instantly fell in love with that quote. Since then I wanted something that said that, so I looked all around for a canvas idea (pinsperation), and came up with this!

I think it came out pretty adorable! Here's how I did it - 

Materials:

- Needle

- Canvas

- Sharpie/Pencil

- Embroidery Floss

- I used twine for the border, but you can use anything!

1. I traced my stencil onto my canvas. I did this using a pencil and an old slide projector thing that I have laying around my house - the light bulb helped my stencil shine onto the canvas - but you can do the same thing by holding it up to a light/window. Or just free hand it! Whatever works for you. Mine came out like this:

2. I used my needle and poked holes about 1/4 inch apart (or something......? LOL) from each other on each of the letters. When you're doing this make sure you send your needle all the way through your canvas. Some people may not even need to do this step and just skip onto actually embroidering, but I like guidelines and it makes it easier (for me) later, but does take a little time. Here's me actually working on mine while being lazy on the couch...

3. After punching all my holes, I started embroidering. Use the back stitch and just work through your pre-made holes. This should take a little while, use your floss wisely (depending on how much you have), and make sure your stitches look good. Don't spend your time doing something halfway...

4. The last thing I did was add a little bit of twine around the edges and tightened it in the back so that it would look more like a border. This is just optional and you can really do anything cute around the border, like ribbon or something.

I hope these steps were easy enough to follow and I hope some of y'all try it out!

Happy Tuesday!

Randell

Brain-dead, Everyday Washcloths

So many, many months ago, I made these wash cloths for my grandma. I love to make little "brain-dead" projects, and these washcloths fit that definition perfect. They make a perfect gift and are so, super easy (if you know the basic purl and knit stitch). My grandmother uses them for all of her dishes and sends them through the washer all the time, and they have worn through it all! Definitely worth your (very little) time and effort!

Materials:
Size 7 Needles
Any worsted weight yarn - I used just some scraps left over from other projects!

Pattern: 
The double seed stitch -

Cast on 31 stitches
Row 1-4: Knit
Row 5: Knit 3, Purl 1, Knit 1, Purl 1 repeat until last 3 stitches - knit.
Row 6: Same as Row 5
Row 7: Knit 3, Knit 1, Purl 1, Knit 1 repeat until last 3 stitches - knit.
Row 8: Same as Row 7
Continue this pattern until your washcloth measures about 8 inches long
Knit 4 rows after you have reached about 8 inches and cast off!

Voila! Let me know if you try them...

Randell

What's sweet, old, and cute all over?

Sorry for the horrible title, but can you guys guess? A puppy, yes. Vintage clothes, yes. But what I'm talking about is a grandmother. I actually googled the definition of a grandmother, and this is what popped up.

Grandmother / noun / ˈgran(d)ˌməT͟Hər / : any kindly, sweet old woman who will happily boost your self-esteem and write you letters and love you. Tends to know lots of neat old songs and obscure, off-color jokes. Generally much cooler and less scary than one's actual mother.

How much more accurate could that definition be? Literally describes my grandma...perfectly. However, despite being so much less scary than my mother (sorry mom), she is so much more than that to me. My grandma is literally somebody who I consider a best friend. Nobody understands the things I say better than her, and I am so unbelievable grateful for the time I get with her, I only wish we could have a hundred years more together.

My grandma just recently got remarried (at like, age 77, go her!) and moved like, 45 minutes away. I never realized how much I saw of her until she left, and now I love the days I have with her where I just go to her house and we sit and we talk and we knit together for hours. These are memories I will cherish for the rest of my life. It breaks my heart to hear about people who never knew their grandmas because some of the greatest advice I have received has came from her. She has taught me things I will remember for the rest of my life.

My grandma has the biggest heart of anybody I know. She loves the Lord and is grateful for all that she has been blessed with in her life, even the bad that got her where she is today. There are literally hundreds of reasons I could say about why I love her. I actually made her one of those cliché Pinterest projects (a lot like this one) with 365 reasons why I love her for Mother's Day. She loves them.
 

Anyway, the point of this post is to tell you all not take your grandparents for granted. They love you unconditionally and deserve that same love back. I hope my grandma knows how much I appreciate her love and advice, and how much I love our little days together. They mean more to me than probably anybody will ever know. My grandma was telling me today that she wished I had known her mother, and I'm sure I am going to be telling my kids the same thing about her one day. The thought that they may never know her breaks my heart. But one day they will meet in Heaven, and for that I am thankful. 

Don't forget about old people, they need love too!

Randell

And here's an adorable pic of my smiling puppy because who doesn't love puppy pics!

The Little Things

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I hope everybody had a very happy 4th of July filled with family, friends, fun, and fireworks! The 4th of July is all about patriotism and being thankful that we are able to live in the (in our opinion) greatest country in the whole entire world. So, because I had a whole day full of thinking about things that I love with people that I love, I decided to make a list (with a little help from my friends) of the little, often overlooked, things that make life worth living:

1. The happiness of swirling around and playing with sparklers
2. Ice cream trucks
3. That "good ice" - you know the kind!
4. When a stranger compliments you
5. How happy your dog is when you walk through the door
6. When somebody tells you they're proud of you
7. Hearing a really old, good song on the radio
8. Sleeping in
9. A warm blanket straight from the dryer
10. Pretty sunsets
11. Your favorite food
12. A day filled with Netflix
13. Wearing new clothes
14. A good movie
15. A hug right when you need one
16. Photo booths
17. Clean sheets
18. A good book
19. Finishing something you worked really hard on
20. The sound of rain
21. Pretty flowers
22. Being in your bed after a long day
23. Just a really good day with people you love

Are any of my favorite things similar to yours? Let me know what little things make your days just that much happier. Always find time for the things that make you feel happy to be alive...

Smile!

Randell